Ester's Story

My husband of only 8 months took his life in front of me all while I was pregnant with our daughter.  Early in our marriage I noticed he had changed.  He had once attempted suicide with his gun in front of me. That time, I’m not exactly sure how I was able to diffuse the situation but we got through it. I didn’t know how to take it because I was not educated on signs of suicide or depression. My husband had each time also been extremely intoxicated. 

I wish I would have known that he was suffering from some type of depression.  My husband never asked for help.  The day he committed suicide was the saddest day of my life.  I keep asking myself why. I wonder why he made me a witness to his suicide.  I wonder if he even loved me and the children. I will never know why.  I now realize how important it is to get the ones we love the help they need when they show signs.  I deeply regret not being aware.   My husband will never get to hold our little daughter.  He will never protect her like he promised he would.  Please help the ones that are still here by getting educated.  It's a choice you won't regret.